I am assuming that you spelled your name right, however, you missed about everything else. I would get something with spell check or a dictionaryaand start filling out applications with boat companies, paying particular attention to the need to repress any urges to speak like you type… Just in case you do arrange an interview. You will be paid the day rate they pay, no reason to work for free or sound desperate or work a never ending hitch. Even if you don’t want to go home your shipmates with still want you leave, maybe more than you can imagine. That’s about all the help I can offer at this point. Good luck.